tests are finally over..
come to think of it
it was a too exhausting test week..
what with so many things going on


firstly the tests were simply not an easy task..
maybe for others no
but a thousand nods for me
my maths totally a fiasco this time
here a little there a little red...
all marks went flying straight out of the window and into the dustbin.
ha... what an exact way to put it.
that goes the same for all other subjects too
i'm gonna get drowned sooner or later into the vortex of marks...


secondly, bye bye Austin...
you were that healthy beforehand
and all signs of distemper was finally fading
when you tried to GIVE IN!!
i wouldn't mind if it was any other day of the year,
but during my tests week
that was just too much to take a day.
I'm still holding a slight grudge against mum now
she didn't tell me
she made the final decision
and by the next day
you were found where?
breathless and lying beneath the stony floor of the SPCA grave
didn't even managed to get a last look at you
what a nice way for me to have tests....(#@&...)


i admit willing thoughts can bring expectations...
even it wasn't my mind controlling it
yeah, it still seems such a coincidence
the second month of school,
way before the mid-year i was wishing to switch classes with 3 zhong
for what?
just to see xue jing
what an odd thought.
and i got it, half of it
the trouble was i could try even the slightest to manipulate things that can be changed..
but what can't be changed is
we were also odd numbers
i couldn't change that since the starting of this year
and what i thought couldn't wield it into reality
we just weren't meant to be in the same class
the power of the mind
The Secret??
anyone believes me??
is it just a crap?


after all this is a late post
but i wouldn't want these to be forgotten someday or later
even it consists of 80% unpleasantness
by the way i don't write diaries



so... it's still a piece of posting worth sharing